Needing a Little Love Today

I've been feeling pretty awful for just over a week now, I'm sure it's because of my hormones since I miscarried last month and I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant again but I don't dare takt the test only to miscarry again since this would be my 6th, I just can't seem to keep it together today.  I'm already crying and I HATE crying, there no logical reason for it, everything is going well in my life except that I feel like crap and my house is falling apart because of it.  I'm usually messy anyway but I haven't had a single clean dish in days and I haven't eaten well in more because everything seems gross.  Luckily my kids are wonderful and they seem to just take what they can get and give me lots of love no matter what is going on.

My poor family has had to deal with my short fuse for a while now and if I am pregnant it will only continue until I get past the worst part of the MS.  I know it will get better, but it feels pretty overwhelming right now.

Thanks for listening to my pity party and whine.

7 comments:

laura said...

Andrea, I am so sorry. Having a miscarriage is a difficult experience....hang in there.

Holly Renee said...

Wow, of course you have reasons to be crying. And you don't even need reasons, if you are sad then you should cry. I am so sorry you are going through all this. I know what is like to be down and BOY does my Husby know what it's like when I get a short fuse. I feel bad about it but I can't help it sometimes. I know things will get better for you. ((HUGS))

Jason's Mom said...

Oh Andrea I'm sorry you're are experiencing such struggles. You have every reason to cry. My theory is if I cry I tend to see things in a new light afterwards.

(((Hugs and Love)))

Kristin said...

Hi Andrea, How are you doing today? Hopefully a little better...Just checking in... ~Kristin from Windy Poplars

PVDela said...

I'm feeling a lot better thanks, I usually just need a day and then things get a lot better from there. I really appreciate all of your kind words and support, sometimes that's all I need to get out of a funk.

Kelly said...

I hope you are feeling better. I must admit I have no idea what you are going thru (miscariages) but cannot imagine the grief or sadness it must entail, let alone continuing on with your "normal" life. Just know there are lots there out there, even across the miles. I second HR's ((hugs)). Crying is a good thing, by the way, it helps us to release, then we can fill up that void with more love :)

Savvy Sassy Moms said...

We have the same name! Girl you are aloud to cry!! And kids have an amazing way of making you feel special and loved even on your darkest or messiest of days - snuggle with them and be thankful for everything you have already been blessed with. Deep breath